A friend (that I did not know) of a close friend has chosen to end his own life. I love our mutual friend and so have offered my support. We're talking through her pain and outrage and it's bringing back a lot of old feelings. Ones that are nearly a decade old but none the less still painful. She is sorry that I have ever had to deal with this, but I am thankful that I can at least walk her through it and have an insight to what she's feeling, as much as it breaks my heart.
Tomorrow my friend (another) will give birth to her first born. She's periodically sent me baby bump updates and it's the weirdest thing- I see her belly and I know there is something in there that tomorrow I will love with all my heart. I am both excited and slightly nervous about the procedure.
Is this life now?
